Now What?

I got a call from my doctor's office late one afternoon. It's never good when you're the last call of the day. We were told that there was a serious problem with Wesley's test and that they were going to refer us to a urologist. I think I went numb after hearing the news. I just knew, I knew that this was the beginning of the end to our pregnancy journey. Of course, my doctor's office said to think positive. The lab could have messed something up or maybe the urologist will find a quick fix to our problem. How could I explain to my doctor that I already knew what the outcome would be? I had no medical reason, just a feeling that this was it. I cried...a lot. Wesley cried too. No matter how much you think you're ready for news like this, it's never easy.

We decided to keep things quiet with our families for a little bit. No reason to get everyone involved until we knew more information. Wesley and I set up an appointment with the specialist and a couple weeks later we were doing some follow-up tests. The urologist was hopeful. He didn't see anything alarming right off the bat. He told us we would have to wait for the test results to come back before we could proceed. Of course, the test comes back with the same results as the first. So, we do one more (just for good measure). With Wesley's issue, there was one of two things that could happen. He would either (a) have a correctible problem, one they could fix with surgery or (b) a non-corrective issue. The tests that Wesley took could determine what kind of problem he had and of course, we have the non-corrective issue. Our doctor, bless his heart, told us there wasn't anything he could do for us. He couldn't refer us to another specialist because there's not much anyone can do about the type of problem we were facing. Funnily enough, Wesley's condition is extremely rare. A very small percentage of men facing infertility issues have his problem. Par for the course.

We asked ourselves, now what? What do we do? We decided that we want a family...family is so important to us. We adopt.

Even though the doctor is able to point at Wesley's problem for our infertility issues, I think there is more behind it. I think we were destined to face this together. God had begun to prepare my heart for this long before Wesley entered my life. And yet, here we are facing it together. Our family is going to be beautiful and full of love because Wesley and I view this challenge as a time to love each other, encourage each other, support each other and stand in faith. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't thank God for my husband. He constantly reminds me of all the good we have in our lives. We are blessed beyond belief.

Ecclesiastes 4:12 reads, “Though one may be overpowered, two can defend
themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.”